want to die (ryan66744)

Race #1254

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Official speed 120.29 wpm (58.36 seconds elapsed during race)
Race Start July 25, 2023 12:36:06am UTC
Race Finish July 25, 2023 12:37:04am UTC
Outcome No win (2 of 5)
Opponents 1. seign (131.21 wpm)
3. foca248 (105.14 wpm)
Accuracy 98.0%
Points 220.54
Text #4940020 (Length: 585 characters)

There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis; my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.