I felt despair. The word's overused and banalified now, despair, but it's a serious word, and I'm using it seriously. For me it denotes a simple admixture - a weird yearning for death combined with a crushing sense of my own smallness and futility that presents as a fear of death.
| Game | Time | WPM | Accuracy |
|---|---|---|---|
| 267709 | 2020-08-01 11:30:18 | 111.17 | 99% |
| 260067 | 2020-05-24 01:36:39 | 117.73 | 99% |
| 259776 | 2020-05-21 09:06:49 | 108.72 | 98% |
| 243414 | 2020-01-29 17:14:55 | 116.56 | 100% |
| 240691 | 2020-01-03 18:11:36 | 109.78 | 97% |
| 237538 | 2019-12-09 01:24:11 | 106.15 | 99% |
| 232960 | 2019-11-16 23:16:19 | 111.73 | 99% |
| 232652 | 2019-11-14 21:40:55 | 107.26 | 99% |
| 222985 | 2019-09-15 17:36:33 | 105.56 | 97% |
| 218915 | 2019-08-22 20:28:04 | 108.97 | 99% |
| 211362 | 2019-07-13 08:20:59 | 118.96 | 99% |
| 201050 | 2019-05-24 10:15:14 | 103.58 | 98% |
| 198776 | 2019-05-10 21:01:09 | 113.12 | 99% |
| 193307 | 2019-03-29 22:17:45 | 96.87 | 97% |
| 192044 | 2019-03-20 17:18:01 | 116.41 | 100% |
| 184478 | 2019-02-15 13:33:45 | 94.51 | 97% |
| 183521 | 2019-02-07 23:15:40 | 95.27 | 97% |
| 173648 | 2018-11-10 18:47:23 | 103.30 | 99% |
| 171011 | 2018-10-21 06:30:26 | 101.44 | 98% |
| 168315 | 2018-10-03 01:50:22 | 103.83 | 98% |
| 166553 | 2018-09-23 19:39:58 | 111.61 | 99% |
| 165372 | 2018-09-18 06:53:16 | 105.30 | 98% |
| 163155 | 2018-09-05 23:20:23 | 99.78 | 99% |
| 142091 | 2018-04-11 07:36:42 | 91.58 | 97% |
| 130546 | 2017-08-17 13:19:35 | 105.34 | 99% |
| 130545 | 2017-08-17 13:16:46 | 93.45 | 98% |