I felt despair. The word's overused and banalified now, despair, but it's a serious word, and I'm using it seriously. For me it denotes a simple admixture - a weird yearning for death combined with a crushing sense of my own smallness and futility that presents as a fear of death.
| Game | Time | WPM | Accuracy |
|---|---|---|---|
| 176063 | 2020-10-26 20:35:11 | 106.36 | 97% |
| 171587 | 2020-05-20 20:04:15 | 119.80 | 99% |
| 162242 | 2019-07-17 21:48:30 | 103.74 | 98% |
| 159633 | 2019-04-23 13:58:53 | 105.89 | 98% |
| 154851 | 2019-02-13 15:51:13 | 118.80 | 98% |
| 150495 | 2018-10-20 15:56:16 | 110.60 | 98% |
| 148180 | 2018-09-17 17:50:07 | 101.61 | 98% |
| 147932 | 2018-09-13 17:04:45 | 96.27 | 96% |
| 146329 | 2018-08-20 16:53:26 | 112.75 | 98% |
| 145441 | 2018-08-09 15:10:44 | 114.99 | 99% |
| 141376 | 2018-06-11 20:08:32 | 122.77 | 99% |
| 141090 | 2018-06-07 18:21:26 | 102.23 | 97% |
| 140642 | 2018-06-05 13:10:47 | 119.14 | 98% |
| 139240 | 2018-05-17 13:00:27 | 107.54 | 97% |
| 137852 | 2018-05-04 20:25:05 | 97.22 | 96% |
| 137651 | 2018-05-02 16:13:44 | 89.11 | 96% |
| 137428 | 2018-05-01 15:54:25 | 106.04 | 97% |
| 136751 | 2018-04-25 16:27:57 | 115.88 | 99% |
| 135809 | 2018-04-17 14:47:55 | 118.95 | 98% |
| 132441 | 2018-02-28 21:12:18 | 108.76 | 98% |
| 129519 | 2018-01-17 20:45:44 | 102.76 | 97% |
| 125123 | 2017-11-29 15:04:39 | 95.97 | 96% |
| 120325 | 2017-09-28 20:30:13 | 118.31 | 99% |
| 114264 | 2017-08-08 16:20:27 | 94.79 | 97% |
| 110750 | 2017-07-18 19:06:00 | 106.37 | 98% |
| 110101 | 2017-07-15 13:25:57 | 100.78 | 97% |
| 107981 | 2017-06-27 20:59:27 | 100.64 | 98% |